12/24/2009

21 grams of love

21 grams net weight
Included all the love I gave
The soul flew away
Only left the bloody shape
Put it on the scale
Trade it to the devil
To exchange to build a bridge in between
Go and take a look the cockles of heart
In order to realize the need of each other
However there is no time for me
The more I walk, the more far away
Finally put down this 21 grams...


12/18/2009

Being concious

想醉

是因為最怕自己清醒時
我知道得自己想要的
是什麼
而且
怕得不到
或者
不可能得到
...

12/15/2009

Think...too much

想做太多
想學太多
想知太多
想愛太多
但,時間不多
還在等什麼
一個她...
無奈中...


11/25/2009

That's why you go...

25 Nov 2009
今天和大家去了Perth city一間Pub食扒
價錢只不過是$5Aus
有兩條香腸,一個麵包
薯塊,生菜,番茄
一塊薄牛扒,和最重要的...一杯啤酒
在澳洲,啤酒是奢侈品
反之紅酒很便宜
在那間Pub,馬拉BT呀哥又再次發揮他的魅力
人人得一塊番茄,他有四塊
人人得一塊牛扒,他有三塊
...同人唔同命呀...點解?What's up?
(“點解”同“What's up”係BT呀哥的口頭禪)
雖然個扒唔係好好食
雖然只係飲得一杯好似水既生啤
但大家都玩得好開心
在回家的車內,BT呀哥開車時播了一首歌
“That's why you go away”
車內的男性全部都唱起歌來
看著車外的夜景,不想也不知道自己在想什麼
...That's why you go...away I know

International Basketball

22 Nov 2009
這天應Kennis男朋友Ken的邀請
去了Western Australia University打籃球
有日本人,韓國人,馬拉人,台灣人
還有僅僅一個的香港代表 ─── 我
七分一場(入一球一分)
五場三勝為之一Round
打完一Round再猜過人
打了三Rounds
本人貢獻甚少,幸運地贏了兩Rounds
因為他們都很準繩,逢shoot必中
其中一個23號(不知道什麼國籍)
他的外圍、剷籃、騰空都很勁
兩個台灣帥哥很高大
呀Ken就全能型,很有爆炸力
其他的人都很勁(只有我一個弱=_=")
但最開心可以再有機會和不同國籍的人打籃球
希望coming星期日再有機會再一次打波

11/21/2009

AussiDream

21 Nov 2009
這已是第二次來到澳洲夢到你
第一次是夢見和你屋企人食晚飯
今次夢見和你行街食飯
我還親了你一下
不知道是不是自己知道在發夢
突然夢醒了
是的,夢已醒了
那種感覺......

11/15/2009

13 Nov 2009

11月8日之後幾天都在找工作
在Sharehouse A去city要先乘公車到Mirrabooka
然後轉車到Perth city
去一程要差不多一個小時
才能去city找工作, 去Library上網
和我在香港的生活沒太大的分別
也是乘一小時交通工具出入city
只是在sharehouse不能上網吧了
因為帶了不多的金錢在這次旅程上
找工作的心情很沉重
還沒有找到拿著相機拍攝的心情
=============================================
11月12日朝早從Sharehouse A搬到Sharehouse B
這裡比較多人
越南工頭David同Katie
一對馬拉兄弟 (BT呀哥, BTB細路)
馬拉男性 Sam
香港女性有: Carl, ,Jane(姐姐), Jaime(細妹), 高妹Kennis, Betsy,
台灣男性有: 高佬Sam
一對情侶 (台灣女性呀Abby同馬拉男性呀偉)
香港男性有呀森, Anson, 偶像, Nash和我
比Sharehouse A多人, 還未有機會影相
但之前影了其他數張相...
遲些再upload...
=============================================

11/10/2009

Same sky


Am I under the same sky as yours?
Still miss you ...

11/08/2009

Several days...

04/11/2009
晚上到達Perth機場
在機場睡了一晚
05/11/2009
到了Beatty Lodge放下backpack
去了買phone card
開Naz account
申請tax file no.
是日晚上Nash駕車載我和makus去share house住
同娟娟分開住了
Share house有:
1對香港情侶 (Phoenix, Soyo)
二個台灣男仔 (Jason,Leo)
一對情侶 (男,Jeewoon?Jun?,韓國人, 女,Emma,台灣人)
加上我和Makus
06/11/2009
上網搵工
Nash帶了去澳洲入境處 labeling
到處遊蕩
晚上和housemates(香港情侶,台灣男仔Leo,Makus和我)聊天喝酒
07/11/2009
上網搵工
China town搵工
AUD$3.3理論
Koey來電
08/11/2009
Makus早上離開Share house
去另一間hostel住
自己準備去Mirrabooka m記上網...

============================

不想去想東西
思想很混亂
暫時將近來的事情記下來
因為不知為何近來很容易忘記事情
請原諒...

11/04/2009

Last

Last night in Hong Kong
Last night in Cheung Chau
Busy, but silence
Breath the air
The cold from nose to heart
Makes me become conscious
To know what I am doing

Bye Bye, take care ...


10/28/2009

Love too late



一直很怕會後悔
「人生最大的痛是後悔,
 而最大的後悔是來不及去愛。」
自己很珍惜所有人和事
所以,我有去愛
但結果換來的卻是失控的自我...
現在,再不需要了


10/27/2009

Self-exile

將在香港安穩的工作放低
將在香港惦念的親友放低
將在香港悲喜的回憶放低
很難,真的放不低...

將一年的衫褲放進一個背囊
將一年的傷痛放進一個背囊
將一年的夢想放進一個背囊
很重,真的很沉重...

離開容易,離別...卻很難
「道別,
 一個既讓人感覺傷感,
 卻很溫馨的場面;
 因為沒有離別的傷感,
 就不會有重逢的喜悅。」
抱著這個信念去離開
伴隨的是既有的傷感
卻沒期望任何的喜悅

...放逐自我...





 

Travel wedding

Travel wedding is my dream
Small old church in Europe near the sea
Old couple are praying, little children are playing
Invite all my friends to see my wedding through the cam
Maybe no groomsmen and bridesmaid
No flower boy and flower girl
No brothers and sisters
No Benz and driver
But it must happy and have all your wish
.
.
.
Daydreaming...It won't comes true


10/24/2009

What are you doing today?

Yesterday was Friday
Tomorrow is Sunday
I don't know what day today
Just don't need to work today
Now it is Eleven O'clock
Just woke up two hours before
Cannot fall asleep anymore
Later go out to take a walk
I'm gonna be crazy
I don't know what happen
I am forgotten and don't want to remember
Everything just pass me by
Can't catch things belongs to mine
Let me lie down and die
This is my weekends life


Crying Wall

I want to cry again
How weak I am
Just to express the feeling
In this crying wall
Divided people into two
Happiness or Sadness
Winner or Loser
Pretty sure I am the latter
On the way to home
Look up at the sky
Just want to leave immediately
Day after the day
Only worse, no better
I just can only cry in here
Dry after wet again on this wall


10/22/2009

Run away from home

This is the fate, I believe
To believe is lie, To wither, Truth
Run away from home, I flee
To flee is life, To linger, Death
Dropping tears of loneliness
Unyielding struggle of heart
Finally lost in the duel
Please don't take away my dignity
The backpack contains the ideality
The road I walk under the reality
They are two entirely different things
Appear in the same space-time frame
I will carry you in my heart with me
It comes with sorrow and pain
When there is no place to hide
Only run away from home as far as I can


10/21/2009

I'm in ruins



["21 Guns" Lyric]

Green Day - "21 Guns"
==================================================
Do you know whats worth fighting for
When its not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When youre at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesnt pass
Nothings ever built to last
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When its time to live and let die
And you cant get another try
Something inside this heart has died
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I
==================================================

I love this song recently
The melody, the lyric
I can't fully understand the meaning of the song
But I fall in the song with the same feeling
"I'm in ruins", no-more "You and I"

10/20/2009

Feeling before leave

當文字中不能表達我的憂愁;
當圖片內顯示不到我的傷痛;
當別人眼中看不見我的悲哀;
自己已緊緊蒙騙了自己內心。
縱使在心深處流著血淌著淚,
沒人想明白自己更不能面對,
曾經努力想令自己心靜下來,
但高估了自己而看小了事情...
當可以忘記那還能叫最愛嗎?
永遠忘不了也不曾想去忘記,
就像燈蛾總是向著火中撲去;
撲進回憶之中卻燃起了自身,
內心的痛苦卻令身體麻目了,
燃燒殆盡的一刻離我不遠矣...
那種絕望的傷痛你還記得嗎?
直到現在也不明白愛是什麼,
是開心是痛苦是快樂是悲傷...
是我選了愛還是痛苦選了我?
對事情的看法急速地改變著,
不相信愛情連對錯也分不清。
也許你會覺得有點誇大其詞,
但我卻覺得連百分一也沒有,
只知自己會再墮入深淵之中...
想睡睡不著不想睡而半睡醒;
想知知不清不會知還想知道;
想愛愛不到不再愛卻忘不了。

10/18/2009

Different between Plan & Dream

「如果目標可以預計在某個時間完成,
 那你只不過是執行一個計劃吧了;
 相對如果是一個不可能的夢想,
 才更有實踐的價值。」

今日行了衛奕信徑第3、4段
即苗圃12小時挑戰賽的SP to CP2
這段路已經行了3次
但沒有1次可以一口氣不休息去完成
藉口可以很多:不夠氣,膝蓋痛...等等
但不知為何今次行的時候
不斷想著開始的一段文字
令自己很有衝動去嘗試一口氣完成這兩段路
縱使左邊大腿,右邊及左邊腳跟對上的肌肉
輪流及同時想抽筋至臨界點
但我不想停下來休息
即使一步接一步也沒有停止自己的步伐
最後,在沒有停下來休息的情況下
可以在3個小時完成頭2段共16公里的路段
這不算是什麼夢想
無論結果是因抽筋跌倒而不能完成
至少自己有努力盡全力去嘗試過
而且今次做到了
這個連自己也沒想過可以做到的事情
真的十分開心

想著相信自己能做到
這已經做到一半了
因為自己會盡全力去做
而剩下的一半
便由天意去決定吧


10/17/2009

End of Today

I know I am not so easy to recover
This is the most difficult day I need to get over
I can't let my memory rests, suffer in the end
Worth to feel the suffocating better to lost my love again
My shadow is the only one that walks beside
I'm man of my word but I feel apologized
Happy has ran away from my life
Can't be ever lonely more
......
Forget me, forgive me
Leave silently is the only way

10/16/2009

Wish you Happy ...

今天對我有一種特別的意義
很想你快樂,但不能對你說
只知有些快樂是不能說出口
將祝福語句,埋藏在於心裡



「思在十月中,
 此情不可語,
 縱有千萬言,
 只可藏心裡。」






10/15/2009

October

Mid-Autumn has gone means October has started
This month does not belongs to me
I fell in this forbidden area again
That's what I predict will happen at all
No place for me to say how I miss you
This is no boundary of depression, silence and sadness
I was abandoned in the absolutely dark
The pain, it's life imprisonment that cannot put into words
To hide, it's self-defensibility to the real life
When can I run away from prison of heart?
Although I have many thought in my mind
I don't want to write it out at this moment in time




10/09/2009

Sorrowful Hair

如果不計用剪髮刀
用電剃刀自己剪頭髮都算是第一次
用了接近1個小時
總算完成了
剪得好嗎?不好
剪得差嗎?...應該可以吧
正如 李煜 《相見歡》

無言獨上西樓,月如鈎,寂寞梧桐深院鎖清秋。
剪不斷,理還亂,是離愁,別有一番滋味在心頭。

萬千煩惱絲
忍心不了去剪斷
不理不理還更亂
古人用頭髮比喻憂愁
現在親手剪下來


愁,真的沒有了嗎?






10/08/2009

Sickness

Little sickness is a kind of happiness
It is because people always forgotten
Forgot we live in this chemical world
Nothing in hand after we decomposed
Equivalent exchange is the golden rule
What you get, somehow what you lose
To see what you have is meaningless
Treasure it or let it go, choice in your hand
Dizzy feeling make me want to vomit
Drowsily fainting drove me to write what I think
Virus in my head destroy everything
Take the drug and find a bed to sleep
Taste the pain and dream in a dream
Ought to be fine after I wake up again




10/07/2009

Taste of Myself

采桑子
又名醜奴兒
作者:辛棄疾

(書博山道中壁)

少年不識愁滋味 愛上層樓
愛上層樓 為賦新詞強說愁

而今識盡愁滋味 欲說還休
欲說還休 卻道天涼好個秋

......

[續看:采桑子]

煙迷露麥荒池柳 洗雨烘晴
洗雨烘晴 一樣春風幾樣青

提壺脫褲催歸去 萬恨千情
萬恨千情 各自無聊各自鳴



此生自斷天休問 獨倚危樓
獨倚危樓 不信人間別有愁

君來正是眠時節 君且歸休
君且歸休 說與西風一任秋


古人詩詞,猶如同現今歌詞
心中默唸,意景優美很好聽
跟著相同格式試寫了以下一段詞:

酒去瓶空人自醉 仰望凡星
仰望凡星 形影已單卻留情


千萬追憶盡化煙 獨自思念
獨自思念 此時此刻已無言


自己劣作沒法與古人相比
只求詩詞之中細味到自己





10/06/2009

My Chemical Element (6)








My Chemical Element (5)






My Chemical Element (4)






10/05/2009

My Chemical Element (3)








My Chemical Element (2)






My Chemical Element (1)





10/03/2009

Wolf S@NG

The moon is going to be full
I can't find my love be with me in two
The feeling is not that good
Talk to myself like a fool
Close my eyes, think of you
Missing you during festive is always true
Circle is a whole, I am incompleted
Break my head, the wound is so deep
The blood is bleeding, from eyes to lip
Everything turn into bloody again
Moon in red
Give me a great change of temperament
Heart on hand
I become a wolf at this time of moment
Human body inside with wolf appearance
Complicated and confused consciousness
Lying on the beach with breezy breeze
Take away my memory in this Mid-Autumn


10/01/2009

Inside Pain

Wake up under sunshine
The heart is still in dark
Linger between dream and awake
Take away my eyeglasses
All I can see is hazy around
Never know what is real or virtual
Let that feeling speed on sadness highway
Swallow up my shadow in neverending tunnel
Shout out the things I want to say
One piece of memory will drive me crazy
Cut off the wound inside my mind
Catalyze the breakdown of pain
Understand everything has its own reason
It will never suddenly happen
Humming the blues rhythm
And walk alone in the silence


  

9/29/2009

100th Feeling

這個星期其實有很多感受想寫出來
但想到這是第100篇blog文
想總結腦袋裡一些東西......
不知不覺間這個"SINg a LONG S@NG"已經3個多月了
在這些日子裡
得到了很多
失去的太多
短時間的得到加失去所形成的化學反應
便是一個不知所謂的自己
和價值觀嚴重扭曲的後遺症
以前一直所相信、所明白、所去做的
通通不見了
迷失的我,不知道該相信甚麼
唯有不斷去看,去想
所看所想的將是我未來的指引
希望不是一個錯誤的改變
我不是沒有動力,毅力,勇氣...
只是一輛的士,不知目的地是那裡
在原地不停自轉,分不清方向
直至現在,我也不知道自己在做甚麼
混混噩噩的過每天
雖然和同事,朋友和家人過得很開心
但這種沒有目標的生活......很可怕
可怕得像窒息一樣
留在這裡,情感上的創傷終有一日會不再痛
但只是自己對所有事變得麻目吧了
...這真的是我想要的結果嗎?...
還有一個月便是約定的日子
在迷霧中的自己
在看不見的道路上
那將是怎樣的日子呢?

It may not be a nice day ......


 
 

9/26/2009

Heartbreaker

If I become the memory
Let me stay in your mind
For a little bit longer
Don't forget me so fast
Cos there is no place for me to stay
Heart-pain become so numb
Everyday is hard for me
The dream, the memory is the willpower
It is the only thing I can use to stand for myself
I don't know how long I can stand
Do my best as I can
The string is pulling, pulling so tightly
Until it snapped into two half
Extremely pain, but I holding back my tears
... Just like a heartbreaker ...





9/24/2009

An unfilial son

今早和母親閒談一輪,每次都感到十分痛心
雖然她沒有說什麼
但從她的表情,言談中字裡行間
都感受到她為我擔心
我不是一個好兒子
明白”孝順”這二字也只不過7、8年前的事
在這之前我更是一個自我中心的*XX
但在父母,尤其是母親的”呵護”下
我只是不想 ”樹欲靜而風不息”
這令我更明白”孝順 ”、”珍惜”這些字背後的沈重
現在要在這時候,在她有至親的離開
再加上我這次不孝的行為
我真的十分內疚...
但卻不能因此而停下來...不可以...
雖然我明白只要我不令他們擔心已經是”孝順 ”他們
但我更”珍惜”和他們,及所有人一齊的時間
如果要我散盡金錢、減壽,可以換來他們健康平安
那真的絲毫不想地應承
自己變得太眼淺,一想到這些
不其然就有哭的衝動
這數個月都是自己一個人哭
但今天卻想在一個人懷內哭
希望是周獸那或 Angleardaddy
(不想在公司哭,唯有對自己講難 gag)
......
如果”珍惜”等於不想令自己深愛的人擔心的話
我真的不想任何人為我擔心
而我更會珍惜身邊所有人和事
包括...你...








*在你認知中最粗俗、用來罵人的說話代替XX

On bed

用了一個多小時
去看這數個月我寫的文章
去感受這段日子以來的傷感
不能否認我在折磨自己
但這樣才能了解自己更多
因為......我太懦弱了
不得不承認的事實
可能因為傷心的感覺又回來了
晚上的憂鬱又發作
想著你,我心在痛
忘掉你,又捨不得
只可以......

9/22/2009

Russian Roulette

Playing Russian Roulette game
Miss a shot, what a shame
Every try is the same
Let me murder my own vulnerability
I will take all the blame
To exchange all the pain

Stood up on the floor, read out the vow
To show my guilty on the blog
"I will never love anymore"
Is it the honor my promise,
Or the lies make me frustrated?

The promise cannot be fulfill
Equal to the lies, can't make it real
Fire to the liar, use my own gun
The bullet has no bias, hopeless to won
I am a loser, no faith, no bravery, no guts
But I'm not the selfisher that needs to run
The muzzle point to me, say the words from my heart
...... I ...... [bang!]



9/21/2009

Groove in heart

Gorillaz - Dirty Harry


...
I need a gun to keep myself from harm
The poor people are burning in the sun
But they ain't got a chance
They ain't got a chance
I need a gun
'Cos all I do is dance
'Cos all I do is dance
.
.
.
I need a gun to keep myself along...
I don't need a heart, just need a gun?
To keep myself from pain
To keep myself from sadness
Fill in the bullet, load into the shooter
Aim to my heart, synchronize rhythm
Five, Four, Three, Two, One...
Press the trigger, is time to over
It's really groove, isn't it, loser?

9/20/2009

Smile

If you have seen the film "Batman - The dark Knight (2008)"
You must remember the actor "Heath Ledger" (The Joker)
In the film, there are two shots The Joker explain why his face like that
One is related to his father, another one is related to his ex-wife
This is the one related to his wife: (2:07 - 3:14)

"...You look nervous. Is it the scars? You wanna know how I got 'em? Come here. Look at me. So I had a wife. Beautiful, like you, who tells me I worry to much. Who tells me I ought to smile more. Who gambles and gets in deep with the sharks? One day they carve her face. We have no money for surgeries. She can't take it. I just wanna see her smile again. I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars! So, I stick a razor in my mouth and do this, to myself. And you know what? SHE CAN'T STAND THE SIGHT OF ME! She leaves. Now I see the funny side. Now I'm always smiling!..."
That's the one scars story of Joker
Maybe the story is Joker's imagination, not real
The story is really sad, but I can't fully understand what Joker's feeling
However I know what the feeling is now......
I'm the one who won't show my actually feeling in my face
So somehow I'm very sad, but I will show the smile in my face
As Joker said "Now I see the funny side. Now I'm always smiling!"
Cry inside, Smile outside

Why so serious!?!

9/18/2009

There

舅父
明早將會送您最後一程
也是我們最後一次和您走在一起
我想您已經在遠處看著我們
您那裡也是我的終點
只想到:
今夕吾軀歸故土,他朝君體也相同
大家也是向著這終點邁進
只是您先行一步而已
那就沒有什麼可怕,悲傷了
人生短短的數十年
不想再虛度每一秒
讓我真真正正在這世上好好活著看一看
然後再到您那處,相見......

9/17/2009

Blind Spot of Myself

Tear off the lies
Don't believe the truth
I don't afraid to cry
But is it really good to be alive?
I draw my mind on the blog
Let future me to ridicule what I did before
Each of the post is a grid of film
Slowly, repeatedly to play it again
In the stopped moment
I record it inside the words
Let me sit silent on the floor, hide inside the box
Read again each word I wrote
Help me once again to know myself in this blind spot


9/16/2009

Primary 5 student

Surfing the internet without any purpose
*But luckily find an essay from a Primary School :

A Dive-sub Trip

          When I was taking photos, I saw a monster. Its eyes are big. Its nose is big. Its mouth is big. It has no body. Its face is big. Its hand is small. It was scary and ugly. It knocked on the dive-sub door because it was bored and wanted to go inside. I prayed that the monster would not come. My friend also prayed. In the end, I and my friend thought we would die, but Jesus helped us to go up to the sea surface. I and my friend were very happy.

By Sin Long Sang
 


Written by a Primary 5 student ... 10 years old
I really want to meet him (I guess he is a boy)
Blog "SINg a LONG S@NG" post an essay written by Sin Long Sang
What a funny thing! XD




* Ref: http://www.htsps.edu.hk/Web/05_stuPlace/lang-eng/0708/2nd_5B24.htm

Woke up from Dream

星期日晚上發左Lee個夢:

=====================

我係一個商場既鋪頭出面睇梗野
而我帶緊handfree接駁住右手褲袋裡的iphone
突然我發覺有人用手拉handfree條線
連我iphone都拎起左
我轉頭一望,一個好醜樣地中海既呀叔
佢想偷我部iphone
我一望,佢就走
雖然佢偷唔到,但我唔想俾佢就咁走左去
我咪追佢lor......追左一段路
點知佢突然停左,轉身係我面前
用手拉我條handfree線,拉起左部iphone
跟住係我面前偷左佢,轉頭就走
我呆左,真係好嬲
我一路大叫偷野,一路追
但對腳好似唔多識郁咁
可能因為現實既我剛剛行完山好倦啦
但我大叫既時間,好多人都幫我手追
佢地幫我捉住左個地中海
個死人地中海就話係我賣部iphone俾佢,唔係偷
我就好嬲咁講:唔駛講咁多,報警啦
跟住去到警局,我就對警察講番事件既經過
個地中海就冷笑咁話我講大話
佢講左句:o靚仔,你幾大呀?我駛偷你D野?
聽完,我嬲得好緊要,就不斷用粗口鬧佢
最後佢可以保釋...佢跟住我
我又不停用粗口鬧佢,直情想打佢
但我記得係夢既最後,我問佢:你幾*多歲呀?**
(*為粗口字眼)

 ========夢完,醒左========

初初夢醒,我真係唔知個夢點解
後來大概自己都估到D......
...
是緣是債是場夢
夢迴夢醒都心痛
...
是嗎?

9/15/2009

Cat Metacarpal Pad

我很喜歡貓狗
剛剛在網上搵到 1 Set 貓肉球的 Javascript
即刻儲齊佢係我個 blog 度

[猫の肉球]











哈哈,真係好得意!!!

9/14/2009

Good to be Alive


陳奕迅-活著多好
...
遇著什麼 煩~惱
想跟我說 都可聽到
翻到有趣 圖畫
何妨大笑 讓妙事亦被我看~~到

遊玩時 開心一點 不必掛念我
來好好給我活著 就似最初
仍然在呼吸都應該 要慶賀
如果想哭 可試試對嘉賓滿座......
說個笑話 紀念我
...
不斷哼著這首歌......

9/12/2009

Immovability like a Mountain

出自 作者:孫武 春秋 孫子兵法
始計第一;作戰第二;謀攻第三;
軍形第四;兵勢第五;虛實第六 ;
軍爭第七;九變第八;行軍第九;
地形第十;九地第十一;
火攻第十二;用間第十三

其中第七項:”軍爭第七” 中的
...
故其疾如風,
其徐如林,
侵掠如火,
不動如山,
難知如陰,
動如雷震。
...
看罷孫武寫的這數句話,感受良多
真是對古人所說的佩服得”五體投地”
這將是我來年要學的
也將是對我人生一個好重要的座右銘
其中”不動如山”這一句的意思
和 One Piece 中 羅洛亞‧卓洛 說過的:
「其實我沒有任何想法。
不相信也不懷疑...
如果肯定某種想法...
一旦知道事情的真相,
在之後的那一瞬間,
動作就會變慢。」
有異曲同工之妙
不能短時間令自己做到全部六句文字
但至少未來這一年澳洲之行
我一定要學到「不動如山」...
三十,立而不惑」

9/11/2009

Tomorrow Barcamp

Tomorrow is day of Hong Kong barcamp 2009, so excited
I still haven't prepare what I am going to talk in barcamp
But I think after people share their knowledge or thought
It will inspire me the idea about what internet look like in the future
In this few days, my mind occur many ideas
Including internet, game, notebook...etc.
Thanks mkow inspire me alot
Also I'm waiting Son's idea too
Before: "三個臭皮匠,勝過一個諸葛亮"
Now: Three QAs with their wits combined equal Zhuge Liang the master mind
haha......Barcamp, I'm coming!

Blog Myself

Everyday look inside the mirror
For the reason that I don't want to hurt again
Type "haha" in the message
For the reason that I don't want to be so upset
Type my sadness in the blog world
For the reason that it's the only way to unlock the cure
No need to say any word
No need to understand who I am
I don't mean to make me cry
However, obviously the trace of tears in my face
You will not see it
But you can feel it in my words
Although I don't want to be lonely
I just want to be alone
Just stay in my blog with me silently
To across every midnight...

Goodbye Myself

I cry when I write about you
I cry when I type about you
I cry when I think about you
I cry when I dream of you
I cry when no one beside
My tears drop falling
On my face
On my shirt
On my hand
On the pillow
On my heart
I can't believe why I still cry for you
I loved the one when first time I saw you
But no longer be here
Don't let me suffer
I can’t bring me back
Only say goodbye to myself......

 
 
 
 

9/10/2009

Hong Kong

Living in Hong Kong for almost the time
Did you ever sit down silently to see this living place?
I didn't......
I think it is the time for me to see the real Hong Kong
From day to night

Girl inside dream

I haven't write more than one post for a picture
This is the first time I write it for twice
I love this picture
Because I miss the one inside......
Also same ending as before





Lying on the bed
I saw you stand beside me
I could not see your face clearly
But I knew you are smiling
You put your hand on my head
"It's really warm" I said
You kept silent in the air
The feeling was so upset
Why? Why let me dream of you again
I don't want to forget
However I also don't want to be sad
When can I escape
in this repeated, melancholy soreness





Awake from dream
Look inside the mirror
The one still here, with tears......
 
 

9/09/2009

Friend's Encouragement

轉載自: 2009年09月09日 am730
心事- 素黑
做能做的
...
身邊不少朋友和親人近日都感受著傷痛,各有各的傷口,人在脆弱時候,懷著再大的意志和信念, 也會疲憊和軟弱,感到渺小,再多的安慰說話,也無法撫平內心的痛。這時候,不管是為自己或別人,我們只能量力而為,做自己能承擔的事,其他的,只能交給上天,也合情合理。畢竟我們不是上帝,也不是超人,我們不過是平凡的血肉,堅強而脆弱。看到需要幫助的,能做多少便盡力,最終幫不了,或無法長遠幫助,也只能留給自然定律。重要是我們保持正面心態,氣餒時也不忘自愛,先活好自己。悲傷時不用天天掛著笑容,流淚時告訴自己世界再壞也有可愛小孩無邪的笑聲,已是最好的安慰。
...
內心的痛,是不能言語
不能用文字來表達出來
人的脆弱,是今朝在這裡
明天已不在的那種無奈
人大了
安慰的說話不需要多
因為那些說話
自己也可以對自己說
明白那些說話和
你可以聽到多少入耳是兩碼子的事
自己的問題,自己的痛苦
最終解決的都是要自己
對我來說,知已朋友
點一點頭,拍一拍膊頭
更勝千言萬語......



我也是這樣對我的朋友
這也是我所能做的

 
 
 

Thirty

出自《論語•為政》孔子曰:
「吾十有五而志於學,
三十而立,
四十而不惑,
五十而知天命,
六十而耳順,
七十而從心所欲,
不踰矩。」

孔子(前552年10月3日或前551年9月28日-前479年)
享年73歲
這篇是孔子晚年寫他自己一生的文章
大膽套用在小弟身上
我還處於第一,二句之間
「吾十有五而志於學」
自己說不上有志趣,但至少學習到基本知識
三十而立」
雖不到三十,但不遠矣...
還不能立下自己的理念
仍處於摸索階段
如果真的如孔子說:「四十而不惑」
那現在的我真的很困惑
希望在三十之前能定下來

斗膽改一改孔子這篇文章給自己:
 「吾十有五而志於玩,
雙十而奮,
二十多而惑,
......」

我想我沒有孔子那麼長命
如果我有六十歲命
那麼快已走了一半
在現時迷惑的自己
不知道做什麼才能 「立」
但知道如果什麼也不做
往後只會 「三、四、五、六十而惑」
定下三十是自己一個里程碑
在之前做一些自己不敢做的事
希望令自己知道往後的路怎樣走
三十,立而不惑」
 
 
 

Hot - Blooded

Lee段時間意志好消沉
做乜都冇衝勁
好頹廢,好洩氣
前日再聽番 Mr. Children 首 "Kurumi"
以為會好番D
點知都係咁...
就係Lee個咁既時間
係船上一個人戇居居
打開部 Netbook
竟然唔記得左...
我有 "One Piece" 睇
即刻由第一期睇起
睇左2,3期到
正到呢...冇野好講
個種熱血又出番黎
至少,係未來幾個星期
係未睇完多一次 "One Piece" 之前
都可以 Keep 住咁熱血
真係好...哈哈

 
 
 

9/08/2009

Balloon with hole

All things in my mind like a mess
I cannot understand what I said
My hands cannot type what I think
Just like tied my hands when typing
I lost my striving heart
Like a balloon with a hole
The air escaping when it is blow
I don't know what am I doing now
I don't know what am I thinking now
Just day after day, week after week
If you were me
Would you do the same thing like me?

9/07/2009

Gray Dream

I think I was dreaming
Inside it was raining
Although there was no surface feeling
My heart still got pain
It seems I am always waiting
Waiting for something
As the time goes by
I still don't know why
There is no other color, only gray
The people without face, I won't afraid
The scene without you still need to play
There is no road for me to escape......


Awake from dream
Look inside the mirror
The one still here, with tears......

9/06/2009

kurumi (kuru mirai)

久違了的音樂
重載的熱情
很喜歡這首歌
也是對自己的一種認同
何時去那裡
何時做什麼
都已經不再重要
重要的是
我對明天的自己仍有信心
衝吧......
"向前走吧 踏上沒有你的這條路上"

Backpack

Today Just bought the backpack with cow and kuen
Thanks Master Wong and his wife so that we had discount
When I carried the backpack on the way to home
I felt so excited...Just like I'm going right now
The feeling is great when you decided to do something you want
Whatever is right or not...
I still have a lot of staffs need to buy
Money, Money and Money......wanna die
I think I need to bring rice box in coming time again
My backpack: Tatonka yukon light 60L

9/05/2009

Mr. Mok

剛剛去左匯豐總行去攞D保險資料
去到D人問我要咩類型既保險既資料
我諗都冇諗就講左旅遊保(可能成日諗住去旅行啦)
但係等梗既時候先發覺我想要既係醫療保
所以見職員#1既時候我同佢講我想要既野
佢就PASS我去職員#2度
職員#2就講解醫療保既野
(當然佢地唔會放過SALE其他保險既機會啦)
聽左一輪,當然要攞D資料返去睇睇再諗諗啦
但同時我又要搞信用咭D野
咁職員#2話要搵另外既職員幫我
要我等等...
等左一陣,原來都係去番職員#1度
我一見佢叫我,我地對望笑左一笑
我同佢講要搞信用咭D野
佢問我攞身分證D資料
當然,好快就搞掂啦
跟住佢竟然同我講佢同我同名
只係唔同姓,又俾職員証我睇
一睇之下,又係真WOR
英文譯音同中文名都係一樣
係個姓唔同...
佢講佢84年出世,我就大佢幾年啦,哈哈
唔知點解,又會咁”橋”識到個同名既人
莫生...I will remember you!!!
 
 
 

9/04/2009

Two Choose One

Today is 4th of September, it's a little bit special for me
2 more months later I will go to Australia for 1 year working holiday trip
I specially create a blog call "Cheung Chau Boy" to write and record down for this trip
However I just wondering is it good to use "SINg a LONG S@NG" to record down the trip
The reason why I open 2 blogs because for the blog: "SINg a LONG S@NG" I use to write or express my feeling, emotion, mood...etc. Mostly are something sad.
For the blog: "Cheung Chau Boy" I create it really for the trip, but after the trip end it also means the blog end...

Use the blog: "SINg a LONG S@NG" to record 1 year Australia trip
or use the new blog "Cheung Chau Boy"?

Still thinking......

Every Night

My frame of mind
Dropped from top to ground
In here every single line
Represent thousand feelings in my heart
Specially at the silence midnight
My mind will get madness
Imagine the thing that can't be imagine
Erase the memory that can't be erase
Cut off all nerve connection
Snip off all bloody vascular
Become a puppet figure
Sit down in front of the computer
Type the senselessness characters
It will never be over
Until all is over

9/03/2009

Heart Puzzle

這是一棵3D心形 Puzzle
弄散了,要用很久才能回復...... 













5年前
這棵心
曾經陪我一整晚上
我用”他”
曾經寫了一篇文章
5年後
 這棵心
”他”又出來陪伴我
同樣地
用”他”寫這篇文章













 今次,我不想弄散”他”
”他 ”散了傷了
我沒信心再令他回復原貌

散了的砌圖
砌好”他”,依舊是砌圖
缺少了的砌圖
”他”什麼東西也不是
I am nothing without ......