Love too late

一直很怕會後悔
「人生最大的痛是後悔，
　而最大的後悔是來不及去愛。」
自己很珍惜所有人和事
所以，我有去愛
但結果換來的卻是失控的自我．．．
現在，再不需要了

Self-exile

將在香港安穩的工作放低
將在香港惦念的親友放低
將在香港悲喜的回憶放低
很難，真的放不低．．．

將一年的衫褲放進一個背囊
將一年的傷痛放進一個背囊
將一年的夢想放進一個背囊
很重，真的很沉重．．．

離開容易，離別．．．卻很難
「道別，
　一個既讓人感覺傷感，
　卻很溫馨的場面；
　因為沒有離別的傷感，
　就不會有重逢的喜悅。」
抱著這個信念去離開
伴隨的是既有的傷感
卻沒期望任何的喜悅

...放逐自我...

　

Travel wedding

Travel wedding is my dream
Small old church in Europe near the sea
Old couple are praying, little children are playing
Invite all my friends to see my wedding through the cam
Maybe no groomsmen and bridesmaid
No flower boy and flower girl
No brothers and sisters
No Benz and driver
But it must happy and have all your wish
.
.
.
Daydreaming...It won't comes true

What are you doing today?

Yesterday was Friday
Tomorrow is Sunday
I don't know what day today
Just don't need to work today
Now it is Eleven O'clock
Just woke up two hours before
Cannot fall asleep anymore
Later go out to take a walk
I'm gonna be crazy
I don't know what happen
I am forgotten and don't want to remember
Everything just pass me by
Can't catch things belongs to mine
Let me lie down and die
This is my weekends life

Crying Wall

I want to cry again
How weak I am
Just to express the feeling
In this crying wall
Divided people into two
Happiness or Sadness
Winner or Loser
Pretty sure I am the latter
On the way to home
Look up at the sky
Just want to leave immediately
Day after the day
Only worse, no better
I just can only cry in here
Dry after wet again on this wall

Run away from home

This is the fate, I believe
To believe is lie, To wither, Truth
Run away from home, I flee
To flee is life, To linger, Death
Dropping tears of loneliness
Unyielding struggle of heart
Finally lost in the duel
Please don't take away my dignity
The backpack contains the ideality
The road I walk under the reality
They are two entirely different things
Appear in the same space-time frame
I will carry you in my heart with me
It comes with sorrow and pain
When there is no place to hide
Only run away from home as far as I can

I'm in ruins

["21 Guns" Lyric]

Green Day - "21 Guns"
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Do you know whats worth fighting for
When its not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When youre at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesnt pass
Nothings ever built to last
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When its time to live and let die
And you cant get another try
Something inside this heart has died
Youre in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I
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I love this song recently
The melody, the lyric
I can't fully understand the meaning of the song
But I fall in the song with the same feeling
"I'm in ruins", no-more "You and I"

Feeling before leave

當文字中不能表達我的憂愁；
當圖片內顯示不到我的傷痛；
當別人眼中看不見我的悲哀；
自己已緊緊蒙騙了自己內心。
縱使在心深處流著血淌著淚，
沒人想明白自己更不能面對，
曾經努力想令自己心靜下來，
但高估了自己而看小了事情...
當可以忘記那還能叫最愛嗎？
永遠忘不了也不曾想去忘記，
就像燈蛾總是向著火中撲去；
撲進回憶之中卻燃起了自身，
內心的痛苦卻令身體麻目了，
燃燒殆盡的一刻離我不遠矣...
那種絕望的傷痛你還記得嗎？
直到現在也不明白愛是什麼，
是開心是痛苦是快樂是悲傷...
是我選了愛還是痛苦選了我？
對事情的看法急速地改變著，
不相信愛情連對錯也分不清。
也許你會覺得有點誇大其詞，
但我卻覺得連百分一也沒有，
只知自己會再墮入深淵之中...
想睡睡不著不想睡而半睡醒；
想知知不清不會知還想知道；
想愛愛不到不再愛卻忘不了。

Different between Plan & Dream

「如果目標可以預計在某個時間完成，
　那你只不過是執行一個計劃吧了；
　相對如果是一個不可能的夢想，
　才更有實踐的價值。」

今日行了衛奕信徑第3、4段
即苗圃12小時挑戰賽的SP to CP2
這段路已經行了3次
但沒有1次可以一口氣不休息去完成
藉口可以很多：不夠氣，膝蓋痛...等等
但不知為何今次行的時候
不斷想著開始的一段文字
令自己很有衝動去嘗試一口氣完成這兩段路
縱使左邊大腿，右邊及左邊腳跟對上的肌肉
輪流及同時想抽筋至臨界點
但我不想停下來休息
即使一步接一步也沒有停止自己的步伐
最後，在沒有停下來休息的情況下
可以在3個小時完成頭2段共16公里的路段
這不算是什麼夢想
無論結果是因抽筋跌倒而不能完成
至少自己有努力盡全力去嘗試過
而且今次做到了
這個連自己也沒想過可以做到的事情
真的十分開心

想著相信自己能做到
這已經做到一半了
因為自己會盡全力去做
而剩下的一半
便由天意去決定吧

End of Today

I know I am not so easy to recover
This is the most difficult day I need to get over
I can't let my memory rests, suffer in the end
Worth to feel the suffocating better to lost my love again
My shadow is the only one that walks beside
I'm man of my word but I feel apologized
Happy has ran away from my life
Can't be ever lonely more
......
Forget me, forgive me
Leave silently is the only way

Wish you Happy ...

今天對我有一種特別的意義
很想你快樂，但不能對你說
只知有些快樂是不能說出口
將祝福語句，埋藏在於心裡



「思在十月中，
　此情不可語，
　縱有千萬言，
　只可藏心裡。」

October

Mid-Autumn has gone means October has started
This month does not belongs to me
I fell in this forbidden area again
That's what I predict will happen at all
No place for me to say how I miss you
This is no boundary of depression, silence and sadness
I was abandoned in the absolutely dark
The pain, it's life imprisonment that cannot put into words
To hide, it's self-defensibility to the real life
When can I run away from prison of heart?
Although I have many thought in my mind
I don't want to write it out at this moment in time

Sorrowful Hair

如果不計用剪髮刀
用電剃刀自己剪頭髮都算是第一次
用了接近１個小時
總算完成了
剪得好嗎？不好
剪得差嗎？．．．應該可以吧
正如 李煜 《相見歡》

無言獨上西樓，月如鈎，寂寞梧桐深院鎖清秋。
剪不斷，理還亂，是離愁，別有一番滋味在心頭。

萬千煩惱絲
忍心不了去剪斷
不理不理還更亂
古人用頭髮比喻憂愁
現在親手剪下來


愁，真的沒有了嗎？

Sickness

Little sickness is a kind of happiness
It is because people always forgotten
Forgot we live in this chemical world
Nothing in hand after we decomposed

Equivalent exchange is the golden rule

What you get, somehow what you lose

To see what you have is meaningless
Treasure it or let it go, choice in your hand
Dizzy feeling make me want to vomit
Drowsily fainting drove me to write what I think

Virus in my head destroy everything
Take the drug and find a bed to sleep
Taste the pain and dream in a dream
Ought to be fine after I wake up again

Taste of Myself

采桑子
又名醜奴兒
作者：辛棄疾

（書博山道中壁）

少年不識愁滋味　愛上層樓
愛上層樓　為賦新詞強說愁

而今識盡愁滋味　欲說還休
欲說還休　卻道天涼好個秋

......

[續看:采桑子]

煙迷露麥荒池柳　洗雨烘晴
洗雨烘晴　一樣春風幾樣青

提壺脫褲催歸去　萬恨千情
萬恨千情　各自無聊各自鳴



此生自斷天休問　獨倚危樓
獨倚危樓　不信人間別有愁

君來正是眠時節　君且歸休
君且歸休　說與西風一任秋

古人詩詞，猶如同現今歌詞
心中默唸，意景優美很好聽
跟著相同格式試寫了以下一段詞：

酒去瓶空人自醉　仰望凡星
仰望凡星　形影已單卻留情


千萬追憶盡化煙　獨自思念
獨自思念　此時此刻已無言

自己劣作沒法與古人相比
只求詩詞之中細味到自己

My Chemical Element (6)

My Chemical Element (5)

My Chemical Element (4)

My Chemical Element (3)

My Chemical Element (2)

My Chemical Element (1)

Wolf S@NG

The moon is going to be full
I can't find my love be with me in two
The feeling is not that good
Talk to myself like a fool
Close my eyes, think of you
Missing you during festive is always true
Circle is a whole, I am incompleted
Break my head, the wound is so deep
The blood is bleeding, from eyes to lip
Everything turn into bloody again
Moon in red
Give me a great change of temperament
Heart on hand
I become a wolf at this time of moment
Human body inside with wolf appearance
Complicated and confused consciousness
Lying on the beach with breezy breeze
Take away my memory in this Mid-Autumn

Inside Pain

Wake up under sunshine
The heart is still in dark
Linger between dream and awake
Take away my eyeglasses
All I can see is hazy around
Never know what is real or virtual
Let that feeling speed on sadness highway
Swallow up my shadow in neverending tunnel
Shout out the things I want to say
One piece of memory will drive me crazy
Cut off the wound inside my mind
Catalyze the breakdown of pain
Understand everything has its own reason
It will never suddenly happen
Humming the blues rhythm
And walk alone in the silence